Been a while since I posted anything, so I figure its update time.
Had a birthday a few days back, and it wasn't too bad. Went up to visit my mom and had a good time, then kinda melted down when I had to spend the afternoon with the grandparents in the sweltering heat and had to get a ride home early. Its tough to be happy when your brain is baking and there is no escape from people. But, when I went home, Mom got me some awesome gifts for my B-day and then the guys helped me clean the basement so all in all it was pretty great.
We had a few days of intensive work in the basement, but now things are shiny and new. Well, sorta. With each mess we clean, a new one arises. Its definitely cleaner than it has been though, so thats nice. I'm adapting to being in a new space with my computer and the new layout.
Now that things are calming down again, its nice to take a load off and relax, but I feel like there is so much going on all the time that I don't get the opportunity to do side projects, which is strange because Ive got so much free time. Its gotta be this new sleep schedule I'm on. Puts me awake at the busiest parts of the day and I sleep through the quiet parts that I used to enjoy. Its weird. Daylight just isn't as much fun.
Gaming has been pretty awesome in our Tuesday group. Last night we had a ton of laughs with our new characters, despite things getting cut short by shenanigans, but thems the breaks. I'm looking forward to seeing what happens next with that bunch. Although it will definitely be different since all the cats are out of the bag. *shrug* Archangel's game is coming up next friday too, and thats been long awaited, so I hope it turns out great. He's been planning for a year it feels like.
On the roommate front, Jazzhands is on some new drugs that make him loopy and kinda an asshat on occasion. Its hard to keep up with him most days, but its even harder than usual now. I wonder if he's got something up with him, but is deflecting it at us so we don't notice as much. Makes me curious. Hopefully, it passes soon enough though. Tele's been really moody lately too and doesn't wanna talk about it, which is fine, but its just hard to sort out tension when everything isn't getting resolved. Again, it'll pass. Its just frustrating at the moment. Archangel's computer got vacated from the basement tonight, which means that progress can start being made in the back corner now, and that means that maybe Tele's computer hub will move downstairs. Only time will tell how that goes.
There are a lot of things I have to stop and tell myself that I worry too much about. For instance, our internet connection has a maximum bandwidth a month of 250 gigs. We hit 220 our first month, which was a little scary to me, but ultimately I think it was just an adjustment to our new internet capacity. Anything that gives me a counter to watch how much we use just triggers my OCD I guess. Other things, like Jazzhands' romantic foibles just rub me the wrong way as well. It sucks when I have to waste mental time wanting to fix other people's problems, but my brain somehow decides that is what I want to think about. I guess I just need better distractions. I dunno.
Another topic of thought for me is Pensic coming up at the end of July. Two weeks of camping is gonna be nice, but I don't feel ready for it at all. It'll be the first time in 10 years that I've seen most of these people, and I'm not sure what to expect from it all. Again, I worry too much, but I guess as I get older I'm beginning to prefer planning over winging it. It all just ends up stressing me out in tiny little doses that add up over time.
Today's been a great day that got miserable all in the course of like 30 minutes flat and now I'm kinda cranky, which is no fun. I started out super happy, and to end it on this note makes me frown a little extra. Archangel and I were working on Jazzhands' computer but it's problem wasn't resolved, and all it did was make me more frustrated because now I worry that my computer isn't working right either, and then when I gave up on it for the night, my wireless was acting up again which only made me more angry and frustrated. To top it off, Jazzhands decided to piss off Tele (or so I assume because he isn't talking to us) when he came in from work. So, theres all this tension for no good reason, and I'm stressed out again for little to no reason and it just makes me cranky.
I think too much. Sigh.
