... not looked forward to.
School starts for me in a little more than 9 hours. This semester shouldn't be awful, but it certainly isn't going to be all that fun. I've got 2 econ courses of no particular importance, Japanese 2 and my world culture required course: An Introduction to Cult and Linguistic Anthropology. Can I pick them or what?
I have no idea what to expect this semester except that currently my fears of school sucking are mingling with the dread of finances and dollar signs as car shopping and so forth have taken a priority in my thoughts recently. I don't really -need- a car per-say, but I want a car. A car means I am self-reliant again, but with that comes the increased debt of bills and gas and so forth. I'm looking forward to it and dreading it all at once.
The house of course is always in the back of my head. When is grandma gonna sell it? Why isn't she putting any effort into getting it fixed? Do I even want to live here when I am done with school? When is the tub gonna fall through the floor? Etc... I really wish I had the time/money/skills to fix the myriad of problems at the house, but I can't do it alone. I seem to be good at motivating people to help me come up with ideas, or volunteer to help, but suck at getting them to actually follow through with said assistance. So, things continue towards the gradual state of decay and entropy that our house currently sits at.
Health concerns bug me a little. I had a cough that lasted a month and is only now starting to go away. So that is something. I need to lose weight, and I want to buy an exercise bike, but as more and more random things are added to my list of crap to buy, it keeps getting pushed further and further down. My back prevents me from doing a lot of the things I want to do/used to be able to do, and its really made me even more sedentary than I used to be. I dont like it, but I have no idea if school insurance will cover it, and I certainly cant afford to pay for the medical bills that will arise from having it checked out.
Other than the natural worries in my life, things have been ok. My roommates are never around which can make life pretty dull and quiet, and when they are around, things can be fun, but also frustrating or confusing too. I think we are in a perpetual state of avoiding each other at this point. Each of us seems to have a 'wing' of the house we use and rarely do we mix. When we are all even here that is. The kittens and I are getting along fine, although I really am looking forward to Tele getting them into the vet asap. They're in dire need of a checkup/spaying.
Gaming is fun, but Im feeling myself starting to burn out. Wednesday game is run by me and now that school is coming back, it is gonna be harder and harder to plan for things. But I plan to endure. Friday game seems awesome, but Im kinda a sidelines character this time, so I am looking forward to being able to fade into the shadows whenever I can manage to catch up on the inevitable school work or whatever comes up.
Besides that, Ive been playing a lot of City of Heroes again lately, and its great. Almost as fun as it used to be. A sign that I have moved on from my late girlfriend and am healing nicely. Now, if only I can get the rest of my life in order again, I might be able to make something of myself. Oh, and I should really start working on that novel of mine again too... Especially since I'm a published author and everything now.
But honestly, I don't have much on my mind at all... Really, I swear.
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