This week was probably one of the best I've had in ages. I've had good friends around and not much to complain about aside from the little stuff that's always there. Gaming was fun and got my mathematical juices going again. Conquering another very crunchy system (for the most part) is always a good thing in my book.
Ive got K-pop stuck in my head and it wont go away, but thats fine by me cause its damn catchy. I haven't had music where the harmonizing has given me a chill in a while, its nice. When I get a car again, you can prolly guarantee that it'll be on the first Mix tape I make for me to jam to.
Today is homework day, I've got a decent amount to catch up on, and plan on digging into that as soon as I get some pizza in me. Its hard to concentrate when your stomach is eating itself. I stayed up super late last night despite going to bed around 1:30. I blame the other goings on in the house. But thats another story. The floor is getting more and more creaky above my head and either I am getting more in tune with the house's creaks and groans or its all getting louder. When I'm not dead to the world, its very noticeable whenever someone is walking around upstairs. Frustrating. At least I have good headphones.
My emotional burdens are slowly being left behind as I try to reinvest myself in my surroundings. I have friends to help and hang out with, school to conquer and my life to wrestle back into shape. I'm tired of dwelling on the past. Time to move forward for a change. Now, I just have to talk Telemelia into helping me with my legal paperwork stuff and get my mom to actually come visit when we can have a heart to heart and go car shopping and I'll really be back in the game. And if it ever warms up, its time to start destroying this lodestone under my skin. The world has past me by for an entire year and I'm sick of being stuck in a rut.
Lets see... as far as school goes, I would love to finish with my Bachelors Degree but I have no inkling into what I want to get it in. I need to go talk to an advisor and get re-motivated in one path or another. Senior level courses don't really interest me as none of the paths I take will likely put much into use and everything that I have come across that isnt scientific or historical information in nature I've been able to rationalize and think my way through anyways. Do I even need it? I'm prolly gonna be going to school for the next 2 years at this rate if I keep going at things the way I am. Is that where I want to be? Is that what I want to do with my self? I just dont know at this point. I'd rather just get a car and a job and go back to being free. I must admit that the time investment of school is nice since I am the master of my schedule and I have no other demands aside from homework and learning.
The basement has been a stagnant mess for months now, I've made a few inroads into rearranging things, but all the whirlwind of cleaning upstairs has kinda demotivated me because unlike them upstairs its pretty much just me down here. Archangel helps sometimes, but less and less as time goes by. It almost feels like a moot point since my furniture is getting worn out and needs some upgrades/repair soon and with the talk of Archangel buying the house, everything seems very temporary again. I just have this feeling that I'll be moving in the relative near future. It'll be strange to be out of this place again, but I know that its about time. I've been yearning to be rid of this place for a while now. Some place that I can call mine (and one that I dont have to mow ever). Perhaps one with a little less romantic relationships swirling around above my head to make me constantly remember what I've lost too. That'd be nice. Some people just don't appreciate what they have and who doesn't. Anyways...
I think thats about all I have for the moment. Until next time.
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